I don't know how much of this stuff is really sinking in, but some of it definitely is, and just hearing and being around others so upbeat and excited (particularly Mr Robbins and SBN) about something as simple as 'being happy' certainly has an effect on you.
I'm so much more positive! I am enjoying my life rather than just watching it go by.
Example: My car was really starting to get on my nerves. I originally bought it as a stop gap - something cheap to run for a few months - over five years later I still had it. I hated it. Driving it was an absolute chore, especially on long distances! Whenever we had to go anywhere I would always be the last to volunteer to drive.
In February I decided to get shot of it. I looked around for something new but was adamant that whatever I got, it had to be what I 'wanted'. It had to be perfect. Right make, right model, even right colour! I umm'd and ahh'd over various cars. Liking one one week, then going off it the next.
I'd always really liked Gemma's friend's Honda Civic. Very sleek and space-y. Just my cup o'tea. But I thought it would be too expensive and I also didn't want to appear to be 'copying'. Until I thought "If that's the car I 'want', anything else is not going to be good enough. Is it?" I booked a test drive (in a new one, just for fun ;) ) and fell in love with it. I collected loads of research in to it: how expensive was a second hand one, how much new, what colours are available, what engine size did I want, 3 door or 5, etc.
Since mid-march I have been driving around in my brand new, perfect car. I actually volunteer to drive now. It's not so much having the car that has made me so happy, but having the car I wanted.
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| My Honda Civic Si |
I'm also setting myself goals which I want to achieve... and I am!
In an earlier post I mentioned how I was unhappy with my belly. Well, now it's gone! In March I think it was, I told myself that I wanted to fit in to an old pair of jeans I had, and that I wanted that to happen by the time my birthday came around. I stuck to it. My diet had a total revamp, but I wasn't being stupid with it. I just ate healthier and thought about what I was eating. I didn't completely deny myself the odd treat.
Kuk Sool was providing PLENTY of exercise and now I am a stone and a half lighter. Those jeans are actually slightly too big! :D
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Another big change I made in June was to have laser eye surgery. I'd never have done that last year. I'd have been far too scared and worried about what if it went wrong? What if it doesn't work? But it has changed my life! Although it did keep me from sparring at the European Tournament as my eyes were still in the healing process.
Waking up in the morning and not having to fumble for my glasses to see, being able to really go for jumps and rolls at Kuk Sool without the fear of my specs flying off of my head, and being able to see my beautiful wife clearly as I kiss her goodnight. These things are priceless.
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I feel that I should include some kind of disclaimer here:
I have not joined a cult. I have not 'found Jesus'. I am not spending a fortune on 'self help' books. I am not on drugs. I am not having a break down. I am not crazy.
I am just happy :D
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